trying my best not to think bout her ler..and i think she noticed that i got feeling towards her too..i can see that you are trying to avoid me too..from the way u talk to me and chatted via sms..mayb i am the 1 who is thinking too much..when all this happens..i dono whether i should be happy or sad..happy cos i finally can concentrate on my studies and sad cos i dowan all these to happens..wakao eh..mch..damn complicated sia..me myself aso confused wad i really want..diao dao..haiz..suan ler bah..i gonna fail in both studies and love..it is nt surprised if my results dropped tremendously..tmr going to pd and melaka..wad am i going to do there actually??aiks..jus go and take in some "fresh" air bah..

damn tired..went to sch today with km and wanmin..actually i planned to cycle to sch today de but raining..and km wan me accompany him to accompany some1..damn complicated..went to sch early today..planned to wait km in sch..but he was so damn late..den i go kayu eat wif jin yaik and chongyong..on de way back to sch..i saw liekuan..as i expected..he ponteng again..haiz..cc addict..damn cham..he changed alot..however he is still my buddy la..went into sch saw km chatting wif jerlin.."she" nt yet reach...den i go over..had a chat wif them..den "she" came..km been teased by jerlin till cham cham..haha..his retribution..i left km alone there..went into class saw wanmin arranging tables..and o.O!! she injured her hand when she was arranging tables..my god..internal bleeding..but she say it's ok..she is a tough gal..hehe..today's attendence was...15 of them are not here today..three of us went to sch cos ytd we skipped..actually i nt really skip la..overslept..we enjoy walking ard the sch and talking..err..gossips sounds better XD..got to know alot of secrets from them..haha..but i promise i wont tell out lar.haha..oh ya.. today me and km made a LOA person angry..haha..he teased some1 ended up being teased by me and km infront of gals summore..haha..ownage..today went to pak li eat..wif km wm bryan(bra) and khengli..si km.. always pak li..dono wad to eat there..only me km and wm ate..bra and kheng li jus eat cendol nia..we chat till so fun..another round of gossips..die liao la..why so kepo 1??lols..khengli the whole day diam diam only..he look tired..or mayb shy..cos wm was there..hehe..later on..went to km's hse..nth much there..stay for awhile den chao le..reached home.. my whole body feel like going to shutdown..damn tired!! tmr skipping sch..independence day celebration.. gonna be boring.. bout 70% nt going..for sure.. haha..but dun really know wad to do..dun hab the mood to study..jie nt bcos of her hor..mai simply guess..i feel like i am prepared..but am i prepared??questions..

btw..can any1 teach me how to forget some1 in the shortest time??dono why lar..i dowan to think bout her..but she keep pop up in my mind..ahhhhh...how ah?? i nid help!!!

no regret for going school today..had a lot of fun..did i ever mention that thiyagu had a new admirer..and the best thing is the admirer was a guy from our class named tiu @.@..my god..gay!!he look so innocent and it is so unexpected..he speaks damn soft..even worst than some of our class's gal..especially joeanna the well known cro spoiler..haha..

today..during chem period..out of nothing wanmin said "xiao T hui zhi ran de chou chi da T de hou mian"(my pinyin is not that good..ps ah)..most of us dun really get she meant except me,km and herself..thiyagu was asking around was is the meaning and i asked them not to tell him..den he ask for translation..i lied to him that is was something like idioms..hard to translate..lols..u should see by urself how he reacted..he was like so despo to know wad it really means..actually the xiao T refer to his admirer(tiu,cos he was skinny) and de da T refer to thiyagu..sometimes, tiu would jus walked to thiyagu back and stand there mumbling bout something..dun really know wad he is mumbling about..rofl..all of us was teasing thiyagu..but as a reminder..dun too over k?? he is a very sensitive guy..he got angry easily..

dude..today pn inthu fine us standing in the class while she teaching again..for the same reason..our class is not clean..i was jus about to clean it up(cos those on duty din did their duty well, not to say they din do..it was jus unfinished), she came in..wad a coincidence..den she asked all of us to go to the back of our class and see all the trash..den she asked me to clean it up..so unlucky..haiz..den the worst thing came..while i was cleaning the trash she was complaining infront..bout my youngest bro..fuck him..he din do his work..din pay attention when tch is teaching..and when tch scolded him.. he scolded back with vulgarities..omg..den my frens was wondering whether will i whack my bro for doing so..honestly i was very frustrated..but i dun really plan to whack him up..don worry..i am not that cruel..

when my bro got back from sch..i asked him bout it..talked to him..he explained..he said..tch knocked his head and he got angry..den he ma scold de teacher lor..i was thinking that wad will i do if im in his situation?? i might do something worst than that cos i dun really like ppl knocking/whacking my head.. but i din tell him all these lar.. to prevent him from thinking that wad he did is right..i teached him how to be humble when he did something wrong..and he aso promised to me that he wont do such thing again..hehe..settled..it was jus a misunderstanding..

errr..i could feel wad you are doing but not now..it is the matter of time..sry..

Finally..
After my boring holidays..
Which is sitting at home doing nothing..
din study but play games all the time..
I GOT BACK TO SCHOOL!!
Missed my school life..
But early in the morning tio some1 put aeroplane..
Si km..
Said wanna come Kayu at 6.45..
Ended with me and Jin Yaik eatting there..
Went into school..
Saw him..
Here comes the reason..
"Sorry lor cant manage to wake up early"
Lame reason..
After that assembly time..
Officer from PPD came down..
Just because of the XPDC to Mount Kinabalu..
Kinda proud though..
Teachers and student from my sch make it to the top of the mountain..
After that..
Our "Father" Mr Yunus came..
OMG..
Faster keep our books as Me,Km and Thiyagu was reading during the assembly..
He just hates those student din pay attention during assembly..
He say later the message is not received by us..
The sad one..
He said this to me..
"Kaywei.. Rambut panjang ah.. Jangan sudah mati baru mau potong"
Translation: "Kaywei..Your hair is long..Dont died ad only want to cut your hair"
Swt..
I dun think of cutting my hair yet..
But honestly..
My hair look sucks..
Thinking whether wanna cut or not..
Went into class..
3rd period which is our history period..
Pn Inthu came in..
From the moment the stepped into our classroom..
We got scolding..
For not cleanning up our classroom..
Dude..
Seriously.. She complained alot..
But it's true..
It is our wrong for not cleanning up the class..
My class was famous as the most undiciplined class..
Though our class known as the "Kelas harapan"..
The rest of the periods was so so ok only lar..
Pn rethinam got prob in the office..
Wanmin saw her argueing wif other teacher bout something..
Dono lar..
Oh ya..
I went to see Pn Ong for our trial Spm timetable..
This make me angry..
Our Trail was next Wed and we had yet to get our timetable..
And you know wad was the best part..
Went to see her..
She say there will be another timetable which is the latest 1 coming out soon..
Dude.. Why must take so long??
How are we going to arrange our study schedule if we dono which day is the paper..
Sucks!!

this few days damn emo..
dono why..
got angry easily..
been thinking for this few days bout me and her..
finally i found the answer and had made up my mind..
i should proceed with my studies indeed..
the reason y?

1st, due to difference in family status..
im from a not so wealthy family compared to her's..

2nd, we do not match each other..
she's pretty while i'm ugly.. XD

3rd, im not the guy she's looking for..
can be seen from those guys she dated with..

4th comes to studies..
i can see that my studies had dropped tremendously..

5th i dont really have topics to talk to her..
had not been chatting with her for more than a week.. LMAO

and alots more.. lazy to write it down..


hmm...
i had gained some useful knowledge from Mr Lau's speech today..
he always give speech on how to be a successful person
in every of his classes nowadays..
today he said something that really motivate me..
this is wad he said

" In order to reach our goals, we must always dream bout things that is impossible..
This will only motivate our heart and mind to achieve those unexpected from you and what you had aimed earlier.. The willingness to obtained it will lead you to the way of success!!"

fuiyoh.. when i heard what this coming out from his mouth..
i was really motivated..
lots of things playing in my mind..
how to study..
how to be someone as he said..
how to be sucessful..
how to obtain my scholarship that worth alot to me..
ish.. really touched..
though some of you thought it is very stupid for me to think that way..
but the words are jus too meaningful..
haha..

must start study liao..
no more falling in love..
no more admiring..
no more games.. except travian..
hehe.. travian addict..
my future is depends on this few months..
the victory that i'm going to obtain in the war that im going to face will come true!!
sayonara all..
PIA STUDY!!
but i will keep my blog update aso..
cos it's a part of my life =]

dono why..
when i look at my books on my study table..
i feel like burning all of them..
getting bored studying..
trial jus around the corner ler..
yet my mind is blank..
some1 pls save me..
haiz..

diao..
jie noe who i love d..
damn it..
forget to delete the pic i edited..
the most noob thing is..
she go and tell my mum..
niao dao..
early in the morning..
woke up..
let jie teased..
den let mummy lecture..
all the bla bla bla stuff lar..
used to it ler..

today i found out that..
i am jus admiring her..
rofl..
sometimes only i can feel the feeling of loving her..
most of the time i dont..
wad is this??
siao liao..
i still doubt
wad is my real feeling towards her..
*confused*

Mum and dad bought a new house..
nearby meru..
which is also nearby the house i used to stay before..
why shift back ah??
near granny's hse..
near daddy's work place..
don nid to stuck in the traffic jam..
save petrols and etc..
i had been to the house..
err.. quite nice..
i'll post the pics up when i'm free..
it is much more bigger than the hse i staying ryte now..
the most important is i going to get a bigger room..
my own study table and so on..
i'm going to decorate my own room..hehe
but.. aiks.. sad thing..
hardly see all my frens at bkt tinggi ler..
but nvm.. i'll drive all the way there..
moving right after spm finished..

oh dude..how could this happen to me again..
i fell for someone!!
at the wrong time la..
ma de.. spm coming leh..
diaos..cant study..
kip thinking bout her..
hab no choice..
asked km and tk to hab a group study wif me..
so that i wont daydream bout her..
ps ah km and tk..
used u all.. haha
god damn it..
why now?? why not after spm??
should i approach to her??
if i dun wad will happen??
if i do wad will happen??
so many questions in my mind now.. ahhhh
Fck

btw..
i had jus celebrated my 17th bday 3 days ago(16/8)..
getting older ler..
sian dao..

celebrated wif my frens on thursday(14/8)..
at greenbox..
damn crowded..
around 20 shown up..
sing songs and played till damn tired..
the best is when we sing the song titled "peng you"(frens)..
all of us stand up and sing together..
damn nice de song..
x33 all my frens..
and thx for ur presents and for ur presence.. =]



(15/8)
went to sch today..
cos of shathis.. tt fella forced me to go..
a few turn up on tt day..
me, wan ming, shathis,thiyagu and pei shin..
really bored..
hanged up wif wanming the whole day..
pei her walk around..
she taught me how to write my name nicely in chinese..
cos i dun really know how to write.. ;)
ps ah wanming..
let u walk alone to mcd.. >.<
reached home..
den straight away help mum ler..
very busy nowadays..
celebrated wif my family include my granny at nite
skipped tuition..
went to restaurant..
named Mun Siang Lou..
at klang parade..
we went for buffet de package..
the food there okok lar..
not bad though..
ate alot too..
after eating around 11 den reached home ler..
waited till 12 am..
BISH!! IM 17!!
received some msges..
and calls.. =] thx ya buddies..

16/8
woke up around 6am
cos 7.20 hab to go to thiyagu's hse..
got chemistry tuition at delta hq..
though it's my bday..
but tuition still hab to attend..
mr moay teach me de..
study comes 1st.. hehe
lunch time..
wanted to go for mcd..
jie say she belanja..
cos she wan the olympic's cup.. =x
went to the mcd nearby petronas..
rofl..
sold out.. damn sad..
den we went to jusco de mcd..
still got.. but mummy say go kim gary better..
unfortunately.. fulled!!
sien.. no way to go..
lastly we went for kenney's rogers..
hehe.. thx jie for ur kenney's rogers..
but i prefer my converse bag more..
but it's ok.. i'll get it by myself..
XD

nt going to blog for this few months till spm over.. psps

edited: i jus cant stop blogging.. and i'm back =="

oww.. 2 days bo update ler..
busy wif works and studies..

hmm.. wad happened last thursday..
i truant again..
stayed at home..
at first i planned to study.. but..
when i see my bro playing games..
i cant control myself..
and i sat beside him and watch..
after his game..
i chase him away..
lols.. damn bad de me..
i continue playing till i realise it was already 12..
omg wtf.. i truant to study..
but i was playing games.. ahh.. fck..
den the whole day i was thinking how to get rid of computer games..
i cant delete all the games cos of my damn bro..
but i made a decision.. NOT TO SEE OR TOUCH GAMES ANYMORE..
made my own schedule..
written down all my goals..
pasted all opposite my study table..
taught by mr lau.. lols..
den i got motivated..
and start studying.. hehe..
tat's all for thursday..

friday i went to sch..
most of the gals was absent.. except poodle..
haha.. she was alone..
budden.. see she so kolian..
km and i go pei her lor..
she very siao 1..
kip tok nonsense and all the jokes.. haha
kinda fun though..
went back home.. start study liao..
night went to tuition..
missed olympic openning ceremony..
got counselling session by mr lau..
he talks on olympic..
not about the games..
but jus to remind us not to waste time on it..
besides tat.. he told us something important..
as olympic arrived..
we as an excellent students.. should take this adventages as..
most of the student will not be studying jus to watch the games..
and this will cause their results to be bad..
if most of the results are bad..
government hab no choice but to pill down the mark's graph..
den.. if u get 70 over for any of ur subject u might be able to get a1 ad..
for those who failed might pass aso..
so.. hehe.. im one of those who are going to take advantages on it..
haha..
for those who read my blog..
it's aso a benefit for u if u r habing pmr or spm on the end of the year..
hehe.. enjoy~

at last.. after thinking for the whole night and got some
advice from my sister's fren..
i had make up my mind and i am going for civil engineering..
hope it will be nice.. hehes..

sister's fren
was currently doing civil engineering too..
i asked him whether the syllabus is hard or not and he said..
as long as my addmath, math and physics are good..
den for sure i can make it.. hmm.. lemme think back..
recently, i scored 100 for my math, i used to be one of
the top 3 addmath scorer in my school, top 3 in physics..
hmm.. not bad bah..
besides tat if i still dun understand wad civil engineering is all about..
i can refer to egg tart and one of my uncle who is an engineer too..
how nice it is to hab them.. hahas..

but.. honestly..
i got such a good achievement due to the low standard of my school cos
it is still considered a new school..
im curious about my performance for spm trial..

hmm.. back to today's life..
today's life was rather simple..
nothing much happened..
everything went usual except..
our school's auntie
accidentally poured some water on my pants when i was
on the way to the school's main gate after school..
luckily not much ppl saw tat and asked me bout it..

aiks.. half way blogging averson msged me..
asked me whether i can make it for a movie..
but i rejected..
not bcos i duwan to go..
is bcos i cant go..
i am preparing for the war<>
as a fren of mine..
hope u will understand tat..

tmr truant again.. the 2nd day of the week..
friday might truant aso..
but i nid to hand up my addmath project..
haiz.. hectic..
have yet to finish it..

my bed is waiting for me.. gtg now.. will be back tmr

yesterday was fun.. can truant and stay at home.. not to study but to play computer games.. but i did study.. more than wad i studied in school daily.. hehes.. i even asked my mum whether can i truant and stay at home study.. she say can as long as your teachers allow you to do so.. so i think i hab no prob wif my teachers as some of my classmates did the same thing and they allow them to do so.. mayb cos we are from the first class.. so.. i will truant at least 2 days per week.. mostly 3 days per week.. hehe..

today i manage to study by my own for ard 2 hours only.. cos of the new game i downloaded from the Internet.. aiks.. cant hold back.. keep think of playing when i was studying.. end up sitting in front f comps for more than 4 hours and in front of tv more than 3 hours.. wtf.. wad am i doing?? wasnt i suppose to be studying for my coming trial exam instead of playing computer games and watching tv??

besides.. i dun think im motivated at all.. whenever the time to study comes.. i will feel tired and my whole body feel down.. dono why.. haiz.. my parents put a lot of hopes in me.. one of the reason cos i am the eldest son.. and i am also kinda smart among all my brothers and sister..

the recent topics that i had talked to my mum is about my career.. i am still in the world of puzzles.. i hesitated whether can i excel if i study engineering or should i just take business which is much more easier and the cost to further my studies in engineering was rather cheaper and affordable.. engineering might had took me around 100 over thousands for degree and diploma.. haiz.. problems come again.. MY FUTURE..

for all my friends who is having loves probs.. i wish all of you good luck and happiness.. if any of you need helps.. can come to me if you want to.. cos i am a good listener too.. =]

that's all for wad happened yesterday.. gtg now.. wanna prepare d.. going school soon.. buh bye..

hmm.. deleted all my previous blog to start all over again cos i'm starting a new life without her..
haha.. when the time reaches.. we humans must learn how to let go those that does not belong to you..